Confession: I have been strongly convicted recently, with regard to my having to ‘control’ things all the time. While I am still a work in progress, I acknowledge that I have let go of many things and quit trying to manipulate circumstances or use various tactics to my own advantage. Yet, I continued to hear the whisper of “whenever you are finished, I will take over.” Puzzled, I prayed, “God, I have done x, y, and z. I have quit doing a, b, and c. Reveal to me what you wish to change, what I need to hand over, what I need to let go of and return to you for your working.”
Not immediately, but by continual pleading and searching, it smacked me in the face... which usually happens mid-sentence in an “I told ya so” type of conviction, this time was no different. As I uttered out a sentence of slight manipulation, I realized my attempt at control was self-defeating. If I believe God's ways are infinitely better than my ways, why hadn't I moved out of the way and let God do what I was trying to do?
So publicly I say...
This situation is yours, God, not mine. I will withdraw my grasp and surrender this to you. You are in control, not me. Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Father, I know your word is true. This verse is true. I thank you for displaying this in my life, and I praise you! Thank you for revealing the condition of my heart and poor intention. I believe huge things are in store with regard to this issue. As I step to the side stage and play background, take the lead and do a mighty work. In Jesus’ Name I Pray,
Are you a control freak? Have you ever struggled with controlling behavior?