Even looking back at my marriage, I truly do remember thinking "I love this man because he loves me." In my mind, no one could possibly love me...so if this man did then I found "the" man for me. And when I didn't feel loved by him......... (I now know that what I feel isn't real...Thank You Pastor Steven Furtick)
Looking back at the few "encounters" with dating that I've had since my marriage, it's hard to even figure out where the attraction began. But I did finally boil it all down to the fact that they paid attention to me and made me feel wanted.
I had that whole internal conversation with myself as I drove home last week. And as soon as I had come to that realization...'How He Loves' was playing on my ipod...
Laura, I love you. Stop looking for someone else to Love you. I love you. Stop basing your worth on a man's love for you. I love you. You are a Child of Mine. I love you. I have a plan for you. I love you. I am jealous for you. I love you. Nothing can separate you from My love for you. I love you. Even knowing full well the totality of your sins... I LOVE YOU!
This has been my favorite song since I first heard it back in 2009, but the words never meant as much to me as they did last week when God spoke to me through them. And since God speaks to me through music, the lyrics of 'God Girl' by Jamie Grace apply as well...
And when my ears start hearin' what people say
Hurry up find love cause time's tickin away
Well, I'm not bein' lazy I'm just waiting for
Still waiting for the right boy
Cause I only want to listen to your voice
So I'll be listenin'
Always listenin' to you every day
I won't sit here and tell you that I know what I'm looking for in a man or even what I should be looking for (I'm not that far into this process), but I do know that I'm in NO hurry. I will listen for His voice!
Help me discover what I should be looking for. Share with us why you Love your spouse <3
Hurry never does it. God works it out as we trust Him and follow His lead. I am glad you have decided to wait on God, you sure will end up in His best for you, amen.
ReplyDeleteHave a super blessed day!
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DeleteI feel like I'm contradicting your post, but I do love my husband in a way because he loves me--just me the way I am quirks and all. I think he finds my weirdness cute. I think it's okay for that to be part of our attraction--as long as it's not where we find our worth and value--that comes from the Lord. Hope I'm making sense.
ReplyDeleteYes, as long as that's not where we find our worth and value. Thx for stopping by!
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DeleteI had a moment like this not long ago. Where I realized that many of the problems which have risen up in my marriage were because I expected my husband to love me in a way that validated me and gave me worth. I was seeking my value in him instead of my value as a child of God. I expected him to fulfill me in ways he never could! And then became disappointed in him for being unable to meet my unrealistic expectations. Figuring that out changed my entire persepective!!
ReplyDeleteThat is precisely where I was...I am glad He was able to speak that truth to you before your marriage fell apart. Lean in to Him.
DeleteLaura,
ReplyDeleteI was also divorced. When I married my first husband, I believed in God, but I did not know I could have a relationship with God. I married a man with good looks (and that was about it). I did not consult God. It was a train wreck.
Two years later after the divorce, I met a man. We became good friends, but I wasn't interested in dating him. One day, God opened my eyes. It really was like a veil lifting and I knew that God had this man for me. We've been married 17 wonderful years now and every year gets better...all because I listened to God. This was my first experience with having a relationship with God and learning that God will guide me for good.
Laura, I pray the same for you.
That is precisely what I am waiting for and know that God has in store for me. I will wait on HIM!
DeleteLaura: appreciate your honesty here. I would say the number one thing is intimacy.... with Jesus :) Run to Him, know Him, adore Him, fall in love with Him... learn what that all means and looks like in your life. No man will ever satisfy your heart like He does. that's my two cents ;)
ReplyDeletethanks so much for sharing with us at mercyink.
blessings to you as you seek,
lauren
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I am learning that no man will ever satisfy my heart like He does....and when God feels I'm ready He will place that Godly man in my path....but not until I'm ready. This is a time for learning and growth for me!
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