Even looking back at my marriage, I truly do remember thinking "I love this man because he loves me." In my mind, no one could possibly love me...so if this man did then I found "the" man for me. And when I didn't feel loved by him......... (I now know that what I feel isn't real...Thank You Pastor Steven Furtick)
Looking back at the few "encounters" with dating that I've had since my marriage, it's hard to even figure out where the attraction began. But I did finally boil it all down to the fact that they paid attention to me and made me feel wanted.
I had that whole internal conversation with myself as I drove home last week. And as soon as I had come to that realization...'How He Loves' was playing on my ipod...
Laura, I love you. Stop looking for someone else to Love you. I love you. Stop basing your worth on a man's love for you. I love you. You are a Child of Mine. I love you. I have a plan for you. I love you. I am jealous for you. I love you. Nothing can separate you from My love for you. I love you. Even knowing full well the totality of your sins... I LOVE YOU!
This has been my favorite song since I first heard it back in 2009, but the words never meant as much to me as they did last week when God spoke to me through them. And since God speaks to me through music, the lyrics of 'God Girl' by Jamie Grace apply as well...
And when my ears start hearin' what people say
Hurry up find love cause time's tickin away
Well, I'm not bein' lazy I'm just waiting for
Still waiting for the right boy
Cause I only want to listen to your voice
So I'll be listenin'
Always listenin' to you every day
I won't sit here and tell you that I know what I'm looking for in a man or even what I should be looking for (I'm not that far into this process), but I do know that I'm in NO hurry. I will listen for His voice!
Help me discover what I should be looking for. Share with us why you Love your spouse <3