As believers, we "don't understand what we do. For what we want to do we don't do, and what we don't want to do, we do." (Romans 7:15)
We have a battle of:
The text of Romans 7:14-25 is where Paul is a believer. He has Jesus. Further, he desires what God desires. Yet, still he struggles within, between the right thing and the wrong thing. Knowing the difference, yet his decisions and thoughts aren't aligning with his actions. This is a perfect example of what christians, or followers of Christ, or believers, internally feel when they slip and don't understand why, because, quite frankly they know better.
Paul shows us this is normal. We aren't crazy. We aren't spiritually schizophrenic, knowing and not doing, deciding and not doing. Something isn't working. This struggle will continue spiralling with attempts at resolution on our own.
In the NIV version of this text, Paul uses the word "I" 27 times, and variations (to include "me," "myself," and "my") another 15 times! Ultimately, in only 9 verses, self is mentioned 42 times. Yes, the struggle is inward. Further, the struggle is magnified when it is self focused.
The despair in verse 24 peaks the cycle of his struggle when he cries out, "What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death?" Finally, the acknowledgement of upward focus. Finally, the end of the self-help.
You cannot serve two masters. (Luke 16:13 & Matthew 6:24) You cannot serve sin and God both successfully. You can try. However, your decisions and your actions, your knowing and doing, will only align through Christ within you. No matter how hard you try on your own. No matter how determined you are to make sense of it on your own.
So, I encourage you today to stop looking inward and look upward. If you know better, but continue to slip... If know know what you should do, and continue to outwardly do the opposite.... If your intention does not align with your action... Look up. Focus on Him for alignment. Let his strength within you help you be More Than A Conquerer! (Romans 8:37)